One of the main reasons Paris Hilton decided to use a surrogate for the birth of her two children was due to the trauma she endured during her teenage years.
During an expansive interview with Romper, the socialite explained that she still has “so much PTSD from what [she] went through” at Utah’s Provo Canyon School for troubled youth.
“If I’m in a doctor’s office, I get a shot, anything, I will literally have a panic attack and I can’t breathe,” she told the outlet in an interview published Tuesday.
“I just knew that would not be healthy for me or the baby, growing inside of someone who has such high anxiety.”
In 2020, the socialite alleged that she had been physically, sexually, and emotionally abused during her nearly year-long stint at the school.
She claimed that part of the alleged abuse included nonconsensual gynecological examinations in which she was held down against her will.
The school has previously said they “do not condone or promote any form of abuse.” The school has since been acquired by a different company who said in a statement to Romper they cannot comment on prior “operations of student experience.”
The “Simple Life” star previously touched on her fear of pregnancy during an interview with Glamour UK, saying that “death” and “childbirth” were the “two things that scare [her] more than anything in the world.”
“I’m just so scared,” she told the outlet at the time. “Leading back to Provo of even being in a doctor’s office, just all of that, the shots, the IVs that they put in.”
Aside from that, Hilton also told Romper that it would have been nearly impossible to manage her hectic work schedule along with the side effects of pregnancy.
“My schedule is out of control,” she told the outlet, noting that her days are often planned a year in advance.
“There never would’ve been the right time to do it because there’s literally no time to do anything in my life,” she said.
Along with now being a mom, Hilton — who secretly welcomed two children within the last year — wears many hats.
The 42-year-old is currently the face of Hilton Hotels, the founder of 11:11 media company, the host of the “I am Paris” podcast, the star of Peacock’s “Paris in Love,” the owner of a kitchenware line, a DJ and also an aspiring pop star with her eye set on releasing new music next year.
While Hilton hasn’t taken any maternity leave since welcoming son Phoenix in January and daughter London last month, she admits that she has started to slow down just a tad since the arrival of baby No. 2.
Despite the long and difficult road to motherhood for Hilton, she feels like her “life is finally complete.”
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While the heiress-turned-entrepreneur says two kids is the “perfect” number, she is still open to potentially having one more.
“I used to look at my friends who’d be like, ‘Oh, I have to go home to my kids and my husband,’ like, ‘You’re so lame. This is so fun. I can’t imagine being like that,’” she recalled.
“Now I’m one of those boring people, and I couldn’t be happier. I couldn’t imagine it any other way.”
Given Hilton’s track record, we probably won’t know about a potential baby No. 3 until he’s already alive and sliving.